ACT XXI

"The emptiness the whole world sings at night."

The school year is over and I feel absolutely nothing. Maybe it's because it was Palomar and I don't have any new friends I'll likely see again and I missed a final, forgot about a weird deadline which resulted in the worse grade I've ever earned, and forgot to turn in a paper (luckily my grade was so high in that class that I still earned an A). Thank God it's over.

What's wrong with me? I would never miss a final or an important deadline or forget to turn in a paper in high school! Is it that I had too many classes and was working too many hours to keep track of everything in my head? Or am I completely losing it? It feels like the latter.

The last three days have been a little difficult. Cody came home from college on Wednesday and I spent Wednesday night, Thursday afternoon and evening, all of Friday, and Saturday morning with him, then -whoosh!- off to Europe for another two and a half weeks. I am so excited for him that he gets to go to Europe, I really am, but at the same time I feel like Dr. Reynolds is teasing me -- letting him come home for a weekend here and there and then a couple of days once summer comes, and then he's gone again. And this time I won't even talk to him until he gets home. Apparently we can create Harry Potter's invisibility cloak, but we can't figure out international cell phone service.

Don't you go calling me selfish, because I want him to be there because it's a wonderful opportunity. But when we've seen each other at best every other weekend for nine months, I am allowed to want him home.

Things at church (the one at which I work, not worship) are interesting... I won't say anything else; I know better than to talk about work on the internet.

This blog totally sucked. I am sorry you read through that. I'm going to post it anyway because I want to put something up. My brain is fuzzy and my life is in slow motion and these are the blogs that result.

posted by Jess @ 9:45 PM